Friday, April 4, 2014

slowly learning to let go

it's always been said that when life gives you limes, put them in your corona...or lemons in your lemonade...whatever. 
makes me sad to confess, that life has finally handed me an entire crate full of "limes". it's the hard times that you're forced to go through that determine whether you are going to sink or swim, and i don't know about the rest of you, but it's a damn good feeling when you throw yourself out there and realize that you were a better swimmer than you thought !

learning to be the person you were meant to be is a crucial part of figuring out what it means to truly live. however, that may come in the form of losing a job, losing a relationship or simply learning that those around you are not those who are going to lift you up when you need it most. recently, i have come to the realization that i am being tested in ever aspect of my life. while i have an amazing job and an amazing family, everything else is being held to the flames. some things i have had to let go of, but in the grand scheme of things, we have all had to do that at one point or another. sometimes you are able to choose what you get to hold on to and others choose for you. i've had the unfortunate, yet fortunate just the same, choices to make lately in regards to my personal life that i just wasn't prepared for...which brings me to this: are we ever truly prepared for life altering events? no matter how much we believe we are ready for, when shit hits the fan, it never really pans out the way i envisioned it. coming to terms with how quickly your life can change can be devastating, scary and downright nauseating. picking up the pieces of the life you lived yesterday to try to piece them into today is a whole new mess of worms.

you (i) have to remember that it's okay not to know what the hell you're doing. it's okay that your beliefs may not be the beliefs of others. it's okay that you are who you are and that won't be enough to satisfy everyone.
                          keep your head up.

how cliche is that ? keep your head up.. when i feel like the weight of the world is slowly crashing in on me, how is it that i have the ability to stand every morning ? BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT WE DO. that's how we grow. that's how we learn to let go.

stay as positive as possible.
learn to laugh at what would normally aggravate you.
accept the fact that all good things must come to an end.
don't let yourself go.
layer your mascara more than you did yesterday.
pick up a healthy habit.
take a drive and talk to yourself, reminding you of who you want to be.
be happy about tomorrow.
be thankful. always.

you can lock a man and a dog in a trunk for 3 days--be the person your dog thinks you are when you open that trunk...not the man waiting to beat your ass for doing such a thing.



this was more for me that it was for you. just what i needed.






cheers.