my life as mrs. timmons

it's been about a year and a half since my last post and an insane amount of things have happened. isn't it so crazy how your life can take you places you never thought you'd go ? one day you're leaving the only world you've known for years and within months you find that that world wasn't at all what you made it out to be. what was waiting for me around that dark, cold corner was the most amazing "surprise" I could've been blessed with....that, was my husband. 

I was to the point where I was okay with being alone,

living in a studio apt, depending on no one. I was okay making dinner for one, doing laundry for one and paying bills for one. I wasn't looking for love by any means and I sure wasn't at the point of trying to maintain another relationship. after all, the last one I endured took everything I had to give and what was left, wasn't the best. 

however, when love seeks you out, calls you by name and shows you that you are worth more than gold, you don't turn away. your instinct may be to run, but if you know in your heart that there is still someone special enough out there for you, it's easy to take the risk, to take the bait. 

I took the bait. I let him swoon me. I let him love me. and I loved him back. the saying is true, "when you know, you know"...and I knew. I knew he was the one who would love me with all of his heart and would make sure to show me everyday. I know his children would love me and that I would love them as my own. I knew our life would be perfect because we knew what each other wanted, just as much as we knew what each other did not. we agreed on finances, had the same beliefs, we have the same views on raising children and our families mean the world to us. I knew in my heart that I was going to marry this man, and I did. April 25, 2015 my life became more complete than I thought possible. I never knew there was a piece of me missing until I met evan. 

now, I make dinner for four, do laundry for four and pay bills for four. we have family date nights, we play endless amounts of games and we laugh until we hurt. we throw parties, decorate the house and bake until we can't see the counters. I never knew I would love my life as much as I do today. 

never, ever, feel as though you aren't enough. never settle for someone who doesn't love you with every inch of their soul. never stop believing that love doesn't exist. and please, never feel as though you cannot love children whom you did not bear yourself just as much as you would love one who shared your dna.

life is wonderful. 

cheers.